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So I had a discussion with a friend on why Air & Fire are not polar opposites but instead gave my explanation on Air & Earth.
Air & Fire has a different alternate to their conclusions. Here is my analysis on it:
Think of a Seed on the ground.
If fire is ignited. what happens when the fire makes contact with the seed? The seed is destroyed. When a wind blows on the seed. Air travels around it, therefore, will forever be blown away; until the seed itself finds a different location on the ground, but it will never settles.
For Fire's Altercation: Once the fire is sparked, it doesn't matter what happens in its path. Fire may spread and everything gets burnt until the flames are put out.
For Air's Altercation: Air's main nature is to influence movement around you until you move. Air/Wind is broad and mysterious because you never know when its coming and where its heading. There's a lack of stability.
Here's where [the] Earth Element kicks in.
Remember the seed? Many people often forget that Earth element is not just a rock, or mountains/plateau, but are also leaves and woods on it, as well. [Do you] Remember how I explain about the wind carrying the seed to [a] different location? What happens if the seeds stays within one place? Eventually that seed will grow to whatever it may become.
Air: "Roam" the skies/land/sea to where-ever the wind takes you.
Earth: "Stand Firm" until all of your seeds grow.
This is the logical reason why the Air element is opposite of the Earth element.”
I considered both Air and Fire to be two sides of the same coin, rather than being polar opposites. These two elements can greatly compliment each other depending on their approach. Air and Water, in my opinion, are parallel to each other. Ironically, Air and water act very much similar in nature. It's an interesting combo due to their mysterious approach. You can argue about the Water has more of stability than Air. That's a whole other topic! lol
Once again, there was a debate through a Facebook post.
Recently Donald Glover, also known as, Childish Gambino released This Is America music video and the mass is on FIRE! There are hidden messages within his movements. These substances were performed BRILLIANTLY throughout the video. Yet, the focus from the media is shifted on Childish Gambino's (non-black) partner and not the video, itself.
T: No, tf not.
Me: Yes. This topic is one of those 'Divide and Conquer' type of ordeal.
There is no official definition of the word. Which why it's a problem, the movement itself can be misinterpreted, and plays into the role of 'Divide and Conquer. Pro-Black doesn't mean Anti-White. The very nature of Pro-Black is to uplift and support 'Black' people within its community and help spread the positive image; in order to COMBAT the stereotypical negativity that surrounds the 'Black' community.
If you are within question about this situation, then you should ask yourself this:
What has this individual done for the 'Black' Community? What is his impact or influences? Do I support this individual?
What I say next is intended to whoever it may fit:
In this situation, You're being hypocrite trying to find hypocrisy in an individual. If a 'black' man/woman found someone who makes him/her happy (and it so happen to be someone from a different race); then by all means let that man/woman BE HAPPY. The focus shouldn't be on someone's dating profile, rather, it should be on the influences that person brings.
What you're doing is implanting the stereotypical "Black should only date Black" mindset on someone else. When you know "Love knows no Color." One last thing, if you are a 'Black' person who only dates outside of your race, because "Black people are too ratchet" then YOU ARE THE REAL TOXIC towards the 'Black' Community.
I stand by this. It's long. I promise you, it's straight to the point.
The media portrays this situation to be complex, when in fact, it isn't. Stop trying to provoke rather than support; when there isn't any problem at all. You are unknowingly supporting the 'divide and conquer' rather than supporting your Black Brother. You are depicting racial/Class status, into this situation which is created by society. The same society which plans to divide you from your black brothers and sisters.
If you are afraid of the potential downside of Gambino's influences ( the one where it can lead more men into marrying other races, bcuz of 'black' stereotypes), Then you should tackle the "De-humanizing" mindset that is programmed inside a 'black' person's mind. Everybody is beautiful. Black, too. If you, my black queen, so happen to fall in love with a person who is not black. I will ask you a simple question. Does he make you happy? If, yes. you don't need my validation, but I support your relationship. If he doesn't, then find someone who makes you happy. Push that agenda then you are uplifting the 'black' community. THAT'S how you support the black community, no matter the situation you're in.
The OPPOSITE of this progression would be, for example
Black Male: "All These Black women are the same, bruh. That's why I date this one white bitch. Less Drama."
Black Male: "I date black women too, but they are last place on my list, cuz.....I don't know."
You have individuals who are within this mindset. That's demonstrates human degradation. That's where our attentions should be focused on. Especially the last example I gave out, cuz the male in the last example. Coulda made "his list" that way because of the influences by the media. Not saying 100%, it's that way, but it is a POSSIBILITY.
If the situations of a Black male was like:
Black Male: "Yeah, my current girlfriend is Asian. My last girlfriend was black. it wasn't all that terrible. it just wasn't meant to be, but this new relationship I'm in. She makes me happy."
That is TOTALLY fucking fine with me.
You should question the approach and not the results when it comes these types of situations. Love itself, is simple yet, complex at the same time. That's the beauty of it.
But ask yourself: If you're not supporting someone who has uplifted his community through his art (in multiple areas), not piece of shit of a person, and demonstrates positive influences towards his community. Who's the real Hypocrite here?
First Day at School at MediaTech Institute Dallas.
Tbh, I wasn't satisfied with Bay State College. Nonetheless, I made the most out of it (to the best of my abilities).
J Dilla - "A Day With The Homies"
"I'm curious, since when did music have races. What is "black music"? Like seriously. Fuck off with this everything is racist bullshit."
Where do I start?
From my perspective, The situation isn't mainly on the race. The focus is where the music originated and how the music was taken from the origin for monetary gains (WITHOUT giving credit or RESPECTING the HISTORY of where the music came from). Rock N Roll is a good example. In today's day-and-age, Rock N Roll is pre-dominantly played and listened by Caucasian-Americans. When Rock N Roll was pre-dominantly played by African Americans.
The origins Rock N Roll stems from Jump Blues, Gospel, Rhythm and Blues (R&B), etc. If you don't believe me, it's happening with Hip-Hop and Contemporary R&B, today. Hip-Hop is your prime example.
Bruno Mars shows RESPECT towards music, ACKNOWLEDGES the music history, his demographics; and ADMITS he would not have gotten too far in his career without the genre. Seren Sensei is attacking the wrong person. She's reaching. She should focus on other artist WHO ARE showing signs of Cultural Appropriation. That is the dark side of Music Business. Keyword: Business.
Music knows no color, but Man knows how to tarnish the History for profit.
One of my Facebook friends shared this picture. I saw it on my newsfeed while scrolling on by. What really caught my attention was the first comment. Ironically, it was from a Caucasian man. These comments presented below is from the FB post. Cutting everything else and now it's just between me and him.
What exactly is the system of oppression that I’m benefiting from? I may have missed a meeting or something...
The Oppression system where it's Rich Versus Poor, ultimately Whites versus Minorities. At this point, They done a great job masking the problem as Rich Vs. Poor. When you are born Caucasian in America, you automatically have higher chance on accessing better opportunities within the educational system, living in a cleaner/safer environment, earning a 6-figures annual salary, access to more financial opportunities and network than any other minority.
"Oh well, Minorities can have the same opportunity as we do, if you work hard enough."
Oh really? African American Billionaires and millionaires who went through, only gods know what, to get to their financial status. The same African American Billionaires who proved themselves as businessmen/businesswomen. The same ones who has proposed their OWN ideas to OWN their OWN black-owned business structures. 100% of time gets shut down, Because the already Caucasian-owned Businesses who are inter-connected to each other WON'T EVER let a chain-rattler own a piece of the land.
Q)"How could it be a Black vs. White thing. Slavery Ended like hundreds of years ago."
A) It's waayyy more than that. When we say Black vs. White. We are not referring to the skin of a man. We are referring to the acts of a man dehumanizing an individual then covering it up as if there's no problem at all. That's White, or light (Yang). Those who been silent, for so long, praying in silence, hoping in silence, acting accordingly to rebel against those with hidden dehumanizing intentions. Supporting each other's body, mind and spirit from evil intentions. That's Black, or Dark (Yin).
"They will let 'them' into the meetings, make 'them' feel as if they are apart of the meeting. As soon as 'they' propose an idea. Disclose it and reject 'their' ideas and invite 'them' to next meeting to tell 'them' what 'they' can do.'
That one, That's the Oppression System we are talking about.
"Fair enough. That was eloquently put, but is it fair to ask how you’ve been oppressed? I look at your profile and you seem like you’ve got a good life and I willing to venture you make more money than I do. I feel like people want to paint this picture of “hey you’re white, have some gold bars” and well I and many who I grew up with just haven’t seen that life. I’m willing to bet my life isn’t all that different from yours. I’ve had my ups and downs, most likely like yourself, and again most likely like yourself, I deal with it, put my pants on one leg at a time, go to work, and take care of my own. Other than conversations like this, I can safely say race never comes up in my daily life regardless who I surround myself with."
There's a difference between being rich and spiritually feeling the riches of life. You understand the frustrations of assumption. You gave an example, yourself. Is it fair to ask have I been oppressed? Yes, especially after being the only candidate out of 7 to take a drug test for a job position. When I thought to myself: hey, I guess everybody has to take a drug test for this position, too. When I discovered I was the only one who took one after I asked all the other candidates. I have NOT smoke a cigarette, or bud in my life. But they don't know that or see that, for that matter. They see what they want to see. The dangerous part of it all. That test, that ACT, didn't come from a racist person. It came from a seed planted in that person's mind. That specific mindset is dangerous. To pretend like nothing is going on is EXTREMELY dangerous.
I agree with you. We are all human, we have our moments under the same sun and moon. We suffer through our individual hardships. We celebrate when our life is blessed. On the forefront, you may not see or hear race discussions from your colleagues. Behind close doors, the experiences are there. It's there, just ask. You may understand the problem or may never. What is for certain. It is something you have to be born by blood for you to understand it completely.
Instead of approaching the situation with utmost "aww", and anger for him not acknowledging the system which falls in his favor. I explained the best way I could, without attacking him, through my experience. He was willing, open to listen, and responded by asking questions (that's proof of someone is paying attention). I am an Afro-Latino, I don't fully understand all of my heritage, but I acknowledged and I am proud of my roots. If we could come together as human being and discuss matters. Ask real questions. We would be a step closer in answering our unanswered questions. :)
(Q.) YOUR 16 YEAR OLD SON ASK YOU FOR $200 TO TAKE THIS GIRL OUT FOR DINNER AND A MOVIE. WHAT'S YOUR RESPONSE?
A.) I'll give him $70(one of the $20 is only for emergency). Mainly for him to learn a lesson.
The greatest moment in love is not when you have everything for your loved one. The greatest moments is when you have nothing to give to your loved one, but both of you chooses to stay with each other to make the most of out of anything. When you based your actions off of a valuing each other's presence over materialistic things. You will walk farther than any Bachelor will ever go.
The thought of not providing for you loved one, humbles you as a man, and motivates you to work extra hard to provide. The feeling right there, son, is a mindset of a man.
I saw a post on FB then answered to the best of my ability to help.
Q.) RECENTLY RELEASED A PROJECT SOMEHOW, BUT I FIND I’VE LOST MY PASSION FOR MY MUSIC, ANY TIPS ON GETTING IT BACK?
Sometimes, you have to indulge yourself into other activities to get your fire back. Try things you always thought about doing, but never fully committed. Breathing life into an overlooked hobby, or you may even begin a new passion elsewhere. Who knows? It's your heart telling you something. Follow your heart's rhythm and see where it takes you. It's okay to feel, as if, you are gonna lose your original passion doing something else. Passion is something you may lose but the real killer is when you intentionally throw it away. There's a difference in setting something aside and throwing something away. Once you spent some time outside your blockade, you will feel as if something is missing. That's when you switch back and give it a go with a fresher outlook than before.
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I'm playing ukulele to help relax my boggled-mind. So, maybe it can help you too. :)
Here, I'm just jamming out a chill session,
-talked about random stuff behind the music production.
-Play some unreleased music of mine.
-I make mistake but this is a judge-free zone for me and just...Be...
Written by Israel Castillo
(The Music below helps you get an understanding, sonically,what my vibes are going through
I want to admit what's been on my mind and what I have been feeling to her. I can't, cuz I knew what I was getting myself into from the beginning. Strings...
I admit my lust for her. I admit my curiosities, cuz I ventured through some unexplored boundaries with her. This ignited my spark again. Inside me that spark flared differently with her and her added elements.
She is an adorable person with traits soooo attractive. Her artistic ways, her personality, her taste, it intrigues me. I want to know more about her. We crave creativity and art. Her, Visually, and Me, being Audio. I'm scared, cuz maybe I'm just too stupid and too blind. Maybe, it's just lust. Maybe it's only one-sided. I, truly, don't know her honest-feelings. Maybe, our meeting and events are too coincidental. Inside, she puts me at ease. It feels good, the vibes flows like water. Now it becoming troubled waters streaming down my mind. My experience with her was enjoyable, nonetheless, and I'll continue to be there for her, if she needs someone, at a respectable distance. The way our souls mixed is something I need forever...But it can't cuz...
(A Small Blog):
You're on your way home chilling on the public transportation. A toddler stands on their seat, smiles at you, and says hi.
What would you do?......
Sometimes, my siblings are a pain in the butt. All jokes aside though, they are the ray of hope for a better tomorrow. They hate it when I give them problems/situations where they have to find the answer themselves. They are some situations, where it's best for them to experience first, rather than explaining it. I would guide them, but strongly encourage to find their own way.
The most important duty is to help them remain focus on exploring their creativity. Life has its way with creativity, but it also have its way to discourage it. So..Back to our Question.........
You're on your way home chilling on the public transportation. A toddler stands on their seat, smiles at you, and say hi. What would you do?
Would you look down on your cell phone, or Smile and Greet?
When a child smiles, it is not because they see color, culture, or your misfortunes. It is because they see another life as a child's smile carries hope.
Is that video from your News-feed worth watching over a few seconds to say hello?
You’ve been doing it all wrong.
To know what’s for you — you have to know what you can and can’t tolerate. It’s important to understand who you are and what feeds you outside of someone else. The biggest mistake people make in trying to savor a relationship, is become something else. A mold to fit a lover’s preference. I believe a good partner is someone who can only complement you, not‘complete’ you. Someone who offers a seat at the edge of your mind but can’t teach you how to fly. Only receive as you receive.
You can’t be half-empty waiting for another to make you equal. Love doesn’t dwell in crevices, nor does it survive on a slice. Unearth your own taste, how are you satisfied? We live in a microwave society, both literal and loose. I can’t teach you how to eat salad if you’ve been conditioned for steak and no balance. Learn your love language and communicate how you’re best fed.
In effort to not lose, I notice people bargain their happiness to not feel lonely. I have never been a person to keep drinking the same water which made me sick. Just because you feel good doesn’t mean you’re in the right place, you have to remember that motion — isn’t always progress. Sometimes people come in your life to misuse your energy for hidden wounds. But after a while, the dumb grow wiser and the the liar becomes a master, do not become a victim of this illusion. Even love isn’t enough.
Relationships fail because of misplaced blame. People try to project what the other person does as wrong and they never see their own fault. In owning where you fall short, you give your partner the badge of vulnerability and a bridge to further that truth. Permission isn’t always a verbal agreement, reassurance can be touch, eye contact or close proximity. You recalibrate miscommunication by showing up with an itch to listen. People lie and pretend everything is okay because they’re afraid to be lonely. Overtime you lose a sense of who you are when you commit to partner’s preference and neglect who you really are.
When your partner misuses your pain, you lose trust. Psychologically they wound you as a way to keep your emotions in control for dependency. A narcissist throws you to the wolves as a sacrifice for their own blood. People like this often misplace trauma to compensate for healing that isn’t real. You can’t give someone the responsibility for your happiness because the moment they mishandle that illusion — they become your enemy. You lose everything. You have to know who you are before you give yourself to someone else. You learn to decipher better what is and isn’t for you.
You have to remember comparison is a failed system in a quest for results. People don’t stay together for reflection, they learn to stay by cleaning each other’s mirrors to find crystals in all the dust. Do not forget to kiss your partner’s wounds while you lick your own. Salt heals but it burns, who are you to your lover, who are you to yourself?
When you learn to answer that question, even your pain will grow nutrients. Feed and be fed. This is how we all survive.
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The more I live, the more I aim to be just an "Average Joe" without a subconscious mind and live as a sheep until kingdom come. Maybe then, I'll be satisfied with my life's direction. But I can't, and I know I won't EVER be. I can't figure out if I'm born or cursed with an ambition to chase a goal, inspired by outside influences, or a question with an endless loop. At the same time, I acknowledge YHWH is within us or left us our greatest answers from within. I ignore it time and timing again. But When I look. I am honestly scared. At the same time, I'm feeling dumb for being afraid of something; I don't know what to be afraid about. I just live on. Open and Honest as I make an honest effort to tackle my contradictions.
Do I take the safe route or Do I take a chance in the streets?
I want to be a recording/performing artist. It's not my only priority. I want to become an Animator. I am also interested in being a web developer. I ABSOLUTELY don't want to go back to school. The criteria required to get a degree is outrageous. Who needs a history on the US Government to become a 'black' web developer under White America? Volunteers? Great! Your total amount is: *Ring* an arm and a leg. Just kidding. We will need your agreement to pays the total amount with interest. if you die your co-signer is legally-liable to pay us back. You get a free pen, though!. :D
I would love to go to a bootcamp course on coding. Only thing is: I'm hesitant on taking out another loan, and stack it on top of another one. I'm already over $19,000 in debt with my incomplete Associate's Degree in applied science for.....Entertainment Management. :D It may seem like I'm ashamed of taking the program. I'm not. I found some amazing people at Bay State College in Boston. I had up's and down's, but mostly enjoyable experiences. I found someone special while I was in college. If there was one thing, I got out of Bay State College. It was her. <3 Even then, I feel like I'm getting played. That's a different blog for a different day.
I need a healthy salary job to be financially-stable. I wanted to become a web-developer, because 'accredited' sources says Junior & Senior web developers receive a sustainable annual salary from 40K-120K per year. The job market is expected to grow exponentially, due to businesses need developers for their business sites. Sweet, sign me up! Did these accredited sources forgot to mention Net Neutrality and how it can affect future web developers?
Q..) HOW LONG IS TOO LONG? WHAT IS TOO SHORT? WHAT IS THE LONGEST YOU'VE GONE?
My Honest Answer:
You can, very well, have a bomb-ass 10 - 15 mins!
An honest 30 - 40 mins can be a bit, too long. Now if she wants to go there. We can go there. Two key-things to justify the length of sex: the strength of your Spiritual connection and Foreplay. One of the BEST kind of sex is when ya both end up COMPLETELY out of breath. When you look into each eyes and say "DAMN. That was good!" and you lay there with your heart, in silence, for a few minutes. Just Staring and smiling at each other. Not 1 word, but you understand each other perfectly.
AKA No fakes, Nothing Forced.
Everybody has their own preferences. Honestly, it's between ya two. There isn't any justified answers, unless it's coming from your heart and your significant other.
P.S. An advice to the fellas who don't know: It's wayyy more satisfying when she cums. I promise.
Written by Israel Castillo, KURXMA
I grew more than I think I did.
Some say when you are in a relationship, your significant other represents you and you represent them. The way she handle things and the way she is, would of represented, the other-half of me years ago, in hatred and grudges. Self-destructing, really. We both have strong similarities with our parents, especially with our own fathers. Her outcomes, was my past. Ultimately, I healed through forgiveness. It something to be learned and to feel it, if you truly want to be happy or else the cycle continues. It's amazing when you put down that mask, say what you truly feel from the heart, and heal through a positive heart with no ill-will. I wasn't the one she could open to anymore. I lost her when she chose to close herself away from me. I was hurt, and betrayed in a sense. At this point, this was bigger than me. I didn't care for my feelings. I cared about her and her health. I didn't care whether she opens up to me or not. She had to let this go, it was eating her up inside like it did with me. I wanted her to release that anger inside, and for HER to replenish HER heart with love & forgiveness. I hope she forgives her father, her mother, and most importantly, herself. In due time...
Soooo much to say about this relationship!!!! Hypocrisy, pride, ego, letting go of them, share an advice but not taking one, "1-sided" - ness, insecurities on both ends, understanding one another, growth, the unfairness, the love, the illusions. AHHHH! This one hit me harder than my past 2 relationships. I'm surprised I'm still standing after this. lol
But all in all:
I cared. I said what I had to say.
I loved. Even, if she's not to me. I'm still a friend.
I let her go.
You can argue with me to say who called off the relationship first.
Me, For calling it off. or
Her, when she closed herself away, but still wanted me around.
I let go what was slowly turning into a poison for me and my growth.
Yeah, I still think about her, but rather in a fading fashion.
What hurts the most is: It's the way that we came into each other's life. The timing, our backgrounds, our goals, & our future. All of that disappears like it was never there at all. I usually have a casual talk with my exes months, even years later, But I knew how she is and she disappeared completely....
I live, and I laugh, and I let live.
Appreciate and forgive!
Blog #3 Topics:
"Guys are guys. We don't show our real emotions amongst each other."
- Sense of Security within my small group of friends.
- The inability to discuss a deeper topic with the "Homies"
- Resisting a (would-be) bad-habit.
Spiritually, I'm at a lost. (Idk why). Being in this position does not mean I'm low-spirited. No. I'm well-motivated and determined to get over the upcoming obstacles. It just feels like something is calling, and I am confused as to what it is that's calling. My mind can't focus on the present, cuz I'm too busy tryna solve this puzzle of what we call: Life.
And There it is
That sentence OVER and over again..........
"You're TOO focus on your music, that you don't even pay attention what's going on around you."
Too Focus on music and not focused on life,
Y does this bothers me? When music became my life.
(A Tiny Blog)
One of my main goals for 2016 is to perform at my former school, Salem High.
Salem High has been a chapter of my life which apart of me still can't get over. Not in the sense of regrets, but in the sense of peace.
One day after school, I decided to auditioned for my school's talent show during my senior year. I caught a MEAN case of stage-fright and sung all the wrong pitches. It was horrible............
I was backed-up into my shell, permanently.I ended up leaving school feeling like my music meant absolutely nothing. In my train of thought, Music is reflection of self, so I felt like I was worthless. At that time, I decided to focus on song-writing and recordings only.
It's been 4 years going 5....
Now, I want to go back to atone for my failures.
And to put a piece of my soul at ease.
Going back up there means inspiring students, or anybody who are going through a tough break to enjoy life. Cuz Happiness doesn't come right after High school, it all starts with you............
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